God, I need a blessing..

Pentecostal, that was my relgion, I was proud of it...& I still am. I may not live by all the rules, I know for a fact I stumble on things I should give to God. I try to fix anything and everything that I think has potential. Like my life for instance...I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I went to church faithfully and gave everything in my life, to God. I know he's there even though I don't live the life I should, but if I did...I don't think the devil would intfer as much as he does now. I've never been one to open my feelings to the world, I can't even open up to myself. I shut down when I'm asked about relgion, or God, or church.
I was raised wearing the long skirts, long hair, no makeup because we were beautiful how we appeared. No tv because it took away from family value, no cursing, no negative music, and speaking in tongues. I've witnessed alot of things in my life. & some things I have never been through, because I raised around drugs, fighting, no money, hard times, and I don't regret it not the first time. We struggled with money, & that's what gave me my drive to finish highschool & go to college and conquered a dream in having a career. Sure, I had a baby young & I know I was raised not to do that..but I think God has his plans for me before I even realized what I had planned for myself...I was raised around drugs, not mentioning any names but I have the most hatred for drugs, I know it's not right to hate anyone or have hatred in your heart, but if you have been through what I have been through growing up, you would probably feel the same. Hard times made me stronger..We moved from state to state, house to house and school to school. NEVER, could my sisters and I have a stable life and grow up in one place. That's what makes me want to make sure my children grow up in a place they can call home. We live in Myrtle Beach, Ohio, Georgia, South Carolina, where my little sister was born, Ansley Grace Mullins...whom I had prayed for everynight, asking God to give me a little sister! (See he always answers prayers, even when you think he's not listening)
The other day a little old lady & a old man, stopped me in the grocery store. I have never seen them before in my 7 years of living in Prestonsburg, KY. I had already had a stressful day and I felt like giving up and breaking. I cried and just asked God to give me a blessing. The old lady put her hand on my shoulder and said "I felt like God wanted me to tell you that, that little boy is a blessing to you and his daddy" I wanted to cry, but I was speechless..and said "Yeah..I do believe he is"
Right there, I knew was God answering my prayers about needing a blessing..He had already gave it to me & the trouble of life and stress of being a mom got the best of my emotions & then right there..I knew God was still watching over me, and was leading me this whole time...
He still is, I don't care who you are or what choices you make in your life, God is just a prayer away and I haven't spent much time with him in awhile..Praying...It's the answer to all your problems..