Sitting up, crawling, WALKING!

He's that shining start, that brightens my life, he's the one thing the only thing that can make my heart melt in minutues, he makes my demons disspear, my past feel like it's not even there, my life began when I met him..I never knew I could be so in love with a slobbery kiss, a dirty face, a little angel...Payton<3
I love my roll as a mother, and I never thought in my entire life, I would spend my teenage years rasing a child, I always thought it would take awhile for me to really grow up, truth is..if it wasn't for him I don't beileve I would have became the woman he shaped me to be. I had a wonderful mom..and to be honest I never wanted to become a mom because I was scared I wouldn't do as good as what my mother did rasing my sisters and I, but I think I get it from her. I now know what she meant when she told me "you'll never know my love for you all, until you have kids on your own"
My baby reached the milestone that really affected me in an emotional way, call me crazy...but he began walking tonight, and I felt a little piece inside of me, break. I know it's an exciting time for most, and all anyone can think about is "your in for it now!" but that's my baby...that's a moment I'll never get to experiecne with him again. I can't thank God enough for putting me here, right where I am today.

Payton-
You are mommys baby, you always will be. I hope that one day you see how close to my heart that you are.
I hope you grow and mold into the young man, I know that you can be. I promise I will always be there to pick you up when you fall. I'll get mad at you, I'll stalk you, I'll fight for you, I'll argue with you..but I want you to always remember that It's only because I love you. There's demons in this world that will try to get you down. But always remember...Mommy's here <3 I'll NEVER leave you.

Below are some pictures of my bestfriend...