Life UPDATE

It's been awhile, I am completely aware of that. Regardless if anyone reads these. I know Payton will, so he needs to know how much cuter he gets every day!
with that being said; my little man is almost 2. Actually today, he is officially 23 months! Where has the time gone? They are all memories now, but every memory is captured with a picture, or simply captured in my heart. Memories that I can't and won't forget. These past 2 years I've gained a life long bestfriend. When no one is there, he always is. You may think "It's crazy" but I just call it fate. God gave me his daddy, so his daddy could give me him. For that, I am forever thankful.

I want to share with you some hard to forget moments. From the funny ones, sad ones, to some of hardest. The mommy life is a different scene from the teenager life, regardless my age. I had a stamp across my forehead that read "MOMMY" plus, you KNOW you're a mommy when you start couponing like it's your favorite hobby. Yes people, I said favorite. I mean come on, tell me what is better than getting toilet paper, dis liquid, detergent, shampoo, paper towels for cheap? Umm nothing! That's just more decorating money.
Ok ok, enough about my new obsession time for payton moments!

Funny-
 As you all must know, these toddlers are hilarious. Never a dull moment, never a boring day. The other day we was in store, of course it would be a quite quite store where even the smallest of things can be heard, even Payton's manly farts. Yes, how embarrassing right? The funny thing though, I thought I got pretty darn lucky because he would make silent ones and luckily every time no one was around. As soon as I thought to myself. "whew, thank goodness" a whole crowd of people came right next to us. I tried getting out of there as soon as I could but just about the time I turned around he let a man fart out. I almost cried, after laughing so hard I about peed my pants. I didn't want them to think it was me, so me being the big idiot I am. I said "Payton! you can't do that in public!" Like he was going to know what I meant right? Well he did, he said "momma fart" I said "Noooo, payton farted" the people heard the whole conversation and giggled under their breath. I was embarrassed I had to get out of there! lol

Mad-
These moments have made me who I am, so after each tantrum and once they are over. I learn how much patience I gain after each and every one and I smile.
His tantrums he throws though, you would literally think he was dying. Not even joking. I am amazed at the kicks, punches and screams this child has in him. BUT, one thing about payton is when he's around people he is sooooo mean I can't even handle him. I'm like "who are you?? what did you do with payton??" then when it's just me and him, he's an angel. Weird thing is though, my mamaw always said the same thing about me. She always loved taking me places with her alone because I was a terror when other people was with us. Guess that's where he gets it from, his momma. One thing he got at least. ;)

Sad-
I have way to many of these. If you're a mother though you'll come to find out that these moments happen quite often. One of the saddest moments I will ever have to deal with is when his daddy leaves to go on storm trouble. Today, as a matter of fact. Daddy didn't come in that door at 7 oclock and Payton was devastated. He kept asking me where he was, he would put his boots on walk around yelling for him. Bring me his sock, tell me that it's daddy's and continue to put it on his foot. It's heartbreaking seeing how close them two are. If he see's a white truck and he automatically thinks it's HIS daddys truck. I am soooooo very thankful that my son has a father like he does. So involved in his life, so in love with him but yet so in love with me (his mommy) as well. It feels so good having my family together. I know one day Payton's going to look back on this and realize what kind of father he has.


The best thing is I can look at my life and really be happy with it. I love my family!!
I feel completely insane sometimes because if there is even the slightest bit of bonding between Payton and Marc, I instantly tear up and go picture happy. Mainly because I don't have that bonding with my dad and because that's the only person I was always wanting to bond with. I have no communication whatsoever with my dad. Our relationship these past 4 years have been off and on, talking and not talking. It hurt and cuts deeper everyday. But I have finally accepted it! It feels good to accept the person he is, so that I have time in my heart to be the person I need to be. I love him unconditionally, but I have my family to focus on.